Ashamed of creativity | courtneypaige's Blog

I am a very creative person, i write songs, i write poems, and starting to write books.
I write films scripts, i sing, i do art, i dance.
But i don't do most of it infront of people, i'm too shy.
No-one has seen me dance since i took ballet, street and jaz when i was little. i stopped taking lessons because i moved and i never started them again (that was when i was 8).
I sing, i used to be in a choir in primary school and in music lessons but i havent done that in 2 years since starting my gcse's.
I play the piano (one of the things i do perform in public)
I take art class for one of my gcse's so my work is seen.
I write songs all the time, sometimes when i'm thinking about a situation, a rhyme just comes up in my heat and i can hear the beat, so i write in the morning, on the school bus, in class, at night... basically whenever something comes to mind.
I have submitted 2 poems/songs to a magazine called Who Cares? it's for fostered/adopted children, and they do a 2 page spread full of those type of things and i am due to be in the Spring 2013 issue, which i am very excited about.

Most of my film script ideas/ books, are mainly based on dreams that i have, or about real life situations that i can imagine in my head.
Like last night i had a dream sort of like a teen version of Fifty Shades of Grey.
I was a foster kid (which i am in real-life) and i moved to a house near a beach, with loads of other kids, and there is one who is troubled and like Christian grey, he has a thing for intimacy.
And i fall for him and when i found out abotu the past girls, i don't care because i can see the pain that he has gone through and i love him, and its basically about seeing past the faults in someone, and looking into why they are like that and who they really are. Alex Pettyfer was the guy, who in the dream he was actually called Alex. so that helps.....
so yeah i mean that particular adaption dream that i had i think would actually be a really cool film and seeing alex in all of his previous movies, i know that he would do it justice.
And the idea was that Alex would be older than the girl, so the relationship would naturally be frowned upon, and complicated and twisted in parts, but it's abotu real life, real situations and about how to get through them.
So although it will never happen, it would be amazing if one day it became a film( although to fit how i've imagined it, it would have to be pretty soon as Alex is already 22, and i wouln't want anyone else to play the part except him).